seriously life's getting busier.
hmmmm. there're so many things i really want to accomplish : ) i know im going crazy, but sometimes its a gd idea to sit down and really think abt the things you need/have/MUST complete. yeah.
i need to train harder (well, a lot harder). i dont wna let anyone down, so there goes. im always telling myself that, but my body doesnt seem to be. uhm, responding? or obliging what i set out to do? something like that. and xcountry com (nhhs that is) is approaching nearer and nearer! and i've got a gd mind to just do marshall duty that day and quit running. : ) hehe, even charmaine was in for it. we shall see. right.
i need to work harder. seriously can i take a BIG BREAK? and no i cant because im alrdy taking a huge one right now. work hard for those
As passes, esp maths. YES MATHS. infuriating i tell ya. and basically everything.
really. i really want to take up drums ! okay i've said this like a million years back, and have lost interest along the way but the passion has returned, once again. :) well, at least i hope. it's like just sooooo cool for some girl to sit behind the drums and jamming away, getting so HIGH! i might have to put this off to like, next few yrs? i cant be exactly free, with nc xcountry and then the maths (gross) and yeah you know, my usual leisure activities. sigh ) :
why is everyone going off so early tonight.sigh. i just wna feel happy again.
you know what i mean.
all these shits that happened. i really really really want to let the whole load go and feel relaxed, feel good again. but no, i dont tink i can.
and i wont..
im so deprived of genuine smiles, laughters that come from the heart..
and most of all. happiness.
or rather, him.
only almost here,
5:54 AM.
